Well I know it has been a while since I have updated. So here it goes....
Half way there! Yes that means 20lbs down and 20 to go. Yay for me! I will give myself a good clap and take a bow! LOL!!! In all reality it has been a tough journey for me. Since we went on vacation back in September, I have been slowly letting my new "healthy" habits slip right out of the window. I have been sticking pretty good to my plan, but I have been the same weight for over a month now. I have been putting myself in and out of ketosis and that is not a good thing for my brain. By my doing that "cheating" along the way, it has made it REAL hard to stick to what I know works. So here are my Revelations that I have concluded about myself...
1. I am a food Addict. PERIOD! I LOVE food, any food, any time!
2. I am a mom. I have crap in my house that is tempting for me, and that will potentially derail my great efforts. The thing about this is my kids don't really need to have that stuff to, but sometimes it is not worth the battle.
3. I have freed up time in my life, and now that I am not running around like a chicken with its head cut off, I have time to get "board" if I dare use that word. Don't get me wrong, I am still crazy busy, but not insanely busy.
4. I USE food...ex. I am an emotional eater. I eat when my husband is upset, I eat when I am stressed, I eat when I have nothing else to do. This is BADDDDD!!!!!! I don't want to take advantage of food! LOL!! I want to use food for its intended uses. I don't want to eat when I am not hungry, or when I am already full. I want to eat my 5 (small) meals a day and be happy!
The thing is I know what I need to do to get to my goal. It is not hard when I put my mind to it. I can reach my goal by April if I just stick to my guns and not let food take over. I know that I will be able to have bread again, I know I will be able to go out to eat and order anything that I want to within reason. I have to remember that this is not just for me. This is for my kids and for Jory. They are so worth it!
Lanna, my Dr. said to me today that you just have to get so sick of yourself to have that self control that it will take to get back on track! She is absolutely right about it! Even though I am running and working out like crazy, I need to do the other part as well.
I can see myself wearing those cute clothes that Jessica ;) would be proud of! I love her style!
I know if I can be a mom of 2 young kiddos, I can do anything!
You're too cute! I want that for you too! I want you to feel comfortable in your own skin. We're still young enough to be cute foxy moms and you deserve to be proud of yourself and what you look like! You're a fox - you've just got a little extra weighing you down. But you can take care of that!
ReplyDeleteIt seems like the big thing is food - you've got great discipline about working out - I wish I had that!!! Try to journal yourself or talk yourself into a new conception and attitude toward food. And first off - get the unhealthy crap out of your house. Giving the kids crap food now will just teach them bad habits they'll have to break themselves when they're older. If you put in the work now and train them and raise them on good food they'll thank you later. And you'll not be tempted by the junk. AND - everytime they complain - just explain the benefits, this will teach them healthy habits as well as reinforce what you already know to yourself. Plus - You can emo-eat all the carrot sticks you want! haha.
You've done so well. Christmas is an awful food time. DOn't let all your hard work go down the drain. Take some time - set out when you'll let yourself slide and when you'll just have to pass on that yummy looking holiday cookie b/c you had that cup of hot chocolate the night before with Jory by the fire. ;-)
Cheers to you and seriously - CONGRATS! That is great!
ps. I'll be in KC at christmas - see you then!
Dyan, I agree with what Jessica said, totally. I have been thinking about this all day. So, here is a suggestion.... GET RID OF THE STUFF YOU CANNOT HAVE!!! Your kids don't need that junk food. Truly, they don't. They don't need bread. They don't need chips. They don't need unhealthy cookies. You can buy the low carb tortillas and give them turkey rollups or quesidillas for lunch. You can give them apples & peanut butter for snacks. REAL FRUIT instead of those AWFUL fruit snacks! And high protein breakfasts... and medi-meals cooked by you for dinner! And sugar free jello for dessert. Christian LOVES that.... You need to stand up for yourself, put yourself first for a change, and get rid of the JUNK FOOD. AND, no more mac-n-cheese, PERIOD. Take control, 'cuz YOU are the mommy.
ReplyDeleteAnd know, I always love you to bits and pieces... and I'm so crazy proud of you!