Jelly Jelly beans!!!

As I sit here in a "jelly bean coma" I wonder if it is just me or if everyone tends to over eat on holidays? Even though I try hard and try and be good with eating, it always seems to be a trap that I fall into called the "over eating trap" How do I overcome this? How do I not feel guilty about eating all that yummy food that is in front of me? If someone has figured it out PLEASE (as I beg) let me know!

I am home today with Lily and Christian. No GYM yet today. Lily has had a fever all night long, and I am sure that Kids Corner would not like me infecting the other children with her fever. I am hoping to get on the elliptical today for an hour or so. It seems that it gets my heart rate up at a good pace for a good amount of time. That is FAT BURNING time!

The Gym...

I love to people watch. That is just fact when it comes to me. It might just not be the best thing to do at the gym though. I start comparing myself and my "fitness" ability's to the person next to me.

There is this one lady who is there every time that I am there. She looks amazing. She is the gal that I said I would love to have her hamstrings, LOL. I just love to watch her workout. She has so much endurance that it makes me want to keep going. I just want to stop her sometime and ask her how does she do it!?

I am slowly turning in to the fitness buff that I have always wanted to be, but is it bad that I want some gal to someday look at me and say I want her endurance or I want to look like HER someday? Don't get me wrong, I don't want to have people "envy" me, I just want to be someone's inspiration too. I just have to get the body to match my mindset. I feel like I am there, I am busting my butt everyday except for Sundays. Why can't my body mirror the mind!?

On a side note, I picked up some Vitamin B1 today. That is going to be added onto my vitamin regimen everyday now. It is supposed to help metabolize the food that I eat better. We will see how it works. I will also start taking Iodine. It is supposed to help with Thyroid problems. I am not going to be taking any of those so called 'diet pills', because I think that chemicals with not help me any. Natural vitamins and supplements I think will help me out in the long run.

Oh So Hungry!

I think that swimming takes everything out of you! LOL I am SO hungry! I had a turkey lettuce wrap for lunch, but MAN I am STILL hungry! Christian is sitting here next to me on the couch, eating some popcorn and oh how I just want to take the bowl from him and eat some! LOL! It is called will power Dyan! I will have popcorn as a snack tonight! Right now laundry is on the list of "to do's"

I guess I will get used to eating less eventually!

5k you say??

I HATE running, but for some reason I have become obsessed with it! I think a lot has to do with running my first 5k back in January. There is really something very cool about running with a bunch of other people. It kinda keeps you motivated to finish. PLUS I am a pretty competitive person, so I like to see if I can better my time. I want to get my 3.1 miles done in 30 minutes or less. I am on my way, but I still am working on it.

I just got done yesterday running a 4 mile, called the Trolley Run. It was for kids that have vision disability's. I went back and forth on running this one, because it was on a Sunday. I have SO many responsibility's at church on Sundays that it is hard for me to miss. With it heavy on my heart I decided to run it. I ran it for a little girl that is so very dear to me. Her name is Phoebe. She is 7 years old and she has a strong possibility that she could go blind. Right now she has a lot of problems with her eyes due to an infection that has attached its self to the back of her eye and brain. She has no depth perception and it causes her physical pain when in bright light. She is a normal 7 year old, except to the fact that she is going blind! I admire her for here strength and bravery! So I did it for her!

The next race that I plan on is the Warrior Dash. Okay it is a little more than a 5k. They say that it is the most hellish 3.1 miles that you will ever do! LOL! Sounds like fun to me! I am doing this one with my Sis~in~law and her Sunday School class. Nothing like jumping over fire and climbing a wall, oh yeah and crawling through mud under barbwire to kick off my training for my triathlon! If that does not sound insane enough to you, then try running this one on July 30th, during the hottest part of the summer in the mid-west! LOL! That sound crazy to me! It will be a TON of fun! I will have to get my inner GI Jane on for this one!

So I guess that I have become a runner, because of my fear of not keeping up with exercising. If I keep signing up for races then I have to train for them, so that mean going to the gym! ;)

Side note! There is this woman at the gym, that I cannot help but stare at her! She is amazing! I want her hamstrings! Haha! Never thought that I would say I wanted someone's hammies! She has a rocken awesome body. I am sure that I would look like that too, if I could just loose the fat on me. I have TONS of muscle, it is just covered by the "jelly" LOL!! **sigh** one day...

To call it diet or not? I think NOT!!

Well this past week, OK the last 3 weeks have not been that great on the diet. LOL I have not watched my calorie intake and my carb intake like I should have been. You know to tell you the truth, I really have not been THAT bad! I have just been really good about not eating processed foods for the last 3 months and I have not been watching that for the last 3-4 weeks. It is weird though, I have missed my eating good. Tomorrow I am back to being good! That means a lot of fruits and veggies, good lean protein, and not eating late at night. Oh yeah, I guess I should detox the bod, by giving up the diet Dr. Pepper too! I feel so bloated and yucky, even with the amount of exercise that I am doing! Calories in should be less than calories out!

Through this journey, the last 9 months, I have discovered that if I just eat healthy and keep up my workouts, I feel SO much better! It really has become a lifestyle change for me. I love the way that we eat now and my kids are learning healthy habbits too! I love that Christian asks for more Broccoli at dinner, and that both of them scarf down fish! I love love love that! I just want to be a good example for them. I want them to look back and say later in life, Mom always ate good and tried to be healthy. I want them to get used to going to the gym, and know that it is improtant to be healthy and fit.

I am done with Fad diets, cause they just don't work! I just want to be healthy!

Good Dy!

Well despite me not getting to the gym today, I got in 1 mile on the treadmill, not to mention that I walked around the Mall with little girl tonight for almost 3 hours! Swimming tomorrow!!!!

I got some funky new gloves to swim in and some goggles too. My eyes did not like the pool so much! I plan on swimming 1 mile tomorrow. I do have a busy day, but if I can get 3 miles in as well that would be great!
Jory is gone this weekend with little man so it is just the girl and me! It is supposed to be 90* tomorrow, might have to run my loop outside!
The Trolley run is next weekend, running the 5k! I am trying to get my mile down to 11 minutes! I had a good pace at 12 today, but I think that I can get it down!
That's all I know for now!

The Start

Well this is IT, I have had it! I am so tired of being in this new 'mom' body that I have.

To start, I have been seeing a Personal Trainer for the past 9 months. I have learned SO much from him, and have built up confidence and muscle. I have struggled with loosing the fat though. It is so discouraging that after all of my hard work and changing of the "diet" I have not lost any weight! OY! Well I had to say goodbye to my trainer, (not his fault) for $ purposes, and now I am on my own. I was scarred at first, but now I am determined to finish what I set out to do 9 months ago.

With the know how that Kent (my trainer) gave me, I will start training for my first Triathlon! I will plan on doing the KC Tri Sprint in 2012!

This will be my crazy journal of my journey! Haha! Stick with me as some of it will be complaining and griping, but all in all it will be real!