Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Oy Vey!

So nothing says get your butt into gear, than finding out that your 10 year High School Reunion is THIS coming August!

I have not see these people for 10 years, and I look a little different now than I did back then. Granted I have had 2 kids, and I am happily married. That is just NO excuse for the way that I look now. You might think that I am being a little hard on myself, but it is the truth. I want to be the girl who goes into the reunion after having 2 kids and looks great! I want to be able to brag that I run 5k's and that I am getting ready to do a triathlon. I want to look that part! I think that Jory looks great! I want to be the Hot Chick by his side, even though he did not go to LSHS.

It is hard to believe that I have been graduated from High School for 10 years now. It seems like it flew by. I am REALLY looking forward to going. I just want to look my best, I don't care if I have to starve myself (just kidding I love food to much to do that) to get there, I will!

So back to the beginning...How many beginnings do I get? It seems like I say that all the time right now. I guess I just have to look at it this way. Everyday is a NEW day! A NEW start!

I just don't understand why this is so hard for me? I tell myself that I can do it, but it seems like I am setting myself up for failure. Almost like I am expecting myself to fail. How do you get it in your head that you can do it without failing? I just want to like me again. I have SO many clothes that I want to wear, and that would look great on me, but I am just not happy with myself and I feel so unpretty!

I was at the Lake last weekend and my good friend PK just had a baby in February and she is already back to her normal size. I am SO happy that she is back and that she is not struggling with weight like I am. But it made me wonder why she did not have the problems and why I do? I don't want to make it sound like I am not happy or that I am jealous that she is back to her pre-pregnancy weight, because I am so glad that she is there. I just don't get it! Granted she is a runner and she works out daily, but so do I... Who knows! (PK, I love you and you help inspire me to get back to ME.)


Well I guess I am just going to have to work that much harder now that I have a 10 year reunion on the books! That means 10 lbs/ month! Encouragement is welcomed!

1 comment:

  1. You can do it! Just cut out the junk food and sugary drinks... ya know.. Yes, you know.... I'm rootin' for ya! And I'm always here for you. I am your mother and I love you to bits and pieces! :)

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